Showing posts with label St Patrick’s Day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label St Patrick’s Day. Show all posts

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Green, The Wearing of

Two years ago on this date, on a bright spring day, I stood in Cahir Square, Co Tipperary, and watched as representatives from the town’s clubs, schools, sports teams and merchants paraded past Cahir Castle, across the bridge over the Suir, up Castle street and around the square. Among the marchers were Hannah Rose, twins Ava and Michaela, and their big brother Callum, who are grandnieces and a grandnephew of Himself and me. Green, gold and white banners fluttered in the sun. The Cahir River Rescue team, of which Callum’s, Ava’s and Michaela’s father is a member, towed one of their boats in the procession.

After the parade ended, people milled in the streets. Children ate sweets and ices; parents shouted after them as they romped away. In the sun’s warmth, we visited with friends and family and watched as a bandstand was set up. Soon the music began, and local children and musicians sang and played their instruments. Then, as the music ended and the crowd broke up, I began walking down the town and out the road toward the Cahir Golf Club, on my way home. By pre-arrangement, Himself – who had gone ahead on an errand – met me on the road, and together we drove home.

Back in Garryroan – the townland just outside Cahir where our house stands – Peggy, my mother-in-law, had prepared a special meal of lamb and a nice bit of bacon (ham, for all the difference in it), mashed potatoes and cabbage. For Peggy, St Patrick’s day never lost its significance of as a Holy Day. The day began with mass, and the midday dinner would be as important as Sunday dinner. We shared a bottle of wine, and while Himself and I did the dishes – a formidable task always, after one of Peggy’s dinners – she went into the sitting room to rest. Later, Himself and I would meet with others in town for a drink. That evening, RTÉ would broadcast video of parades from all over the country, small towns and large, all with marching bands, children in school uniforms, sports teams in their colours, and, in the larger cities and towns, floats and costumed players, bands from America and beyond, festive amid banners and streamers and crowds.

St Patrick’s day in Ireland is both religious and patriotic holiday, a day off to celebrate both Saint and Country. People wear funny hats, to be sure, oversized bright green furry top hats, or hats representing foaming pints of Guinness. But, more importantly, their collars and labels sprout bunches of fresh shamrock, which is, along with the harp, the symbol of Ireland, the ‘wearing of the green.’

On this evening three years ago, Himself and I, along with his brother, walked through the rain and the muck of a terrible ‘durty’ evening across the fields outside Cashel, Co Tipperary. There a spectacular fireworks display and laser show was one of the national festive events to mark the day. The fireworks went ahead despite the rain. I stood on a hillside looking over the magnificent, historic Rock of Cashel and watched as rockets exploded against the murky sky. It was my first year living in Ireland and I felt a strange disconnect seeing a patriotic display comprising gold, green and white rather than red, white and blue. It was another in a string of adjustments, large and small, I hadn’t anticipated but which made sense in the moment.

This evening, I’m typing this in a room growing darker with the oncoming dusk. It has been grey and rainy all day, and I feel far from the festivities of Ireland or, for that matter, from the American exuberance surrounding the day. Soon, however, Himself will be home from the office. We’re both wearing our badges of shamrock encased in plastic, as we do every year on this day. We’ve planned to meet with some others from his office at an Italian restaurant for dinner. Then we’ll go up a narrow gasse under glowering Mönchsberg to Murphy’s Law, a pub run by a sometimes cantankerous Corkman. It will be crowded with Austrians, most likely, with a smattering of Americans and a handful of Irish, the noise and the crush growing as the evening goes on.

But now, in this quiet before we go out into the crowd, I pause for a moment to think of the hedgerows across from our house in Garryroan. Today they will still be brown and bronze after the harsh winter, but perhaps the bracken is just beginning to green. Perhaps there is the faintest haze of green as the beeches across the fields begin to bud.

And perhaps Peggy – if you were still there, Peggy – perhaps you would have brought in some willow, the catkins just swelling. We might even be able to find, were we there to look, the first of the pale primroses, half-hidden under the fall’s scatter of old leaves, the sight of which, Peggy, would bring a flush of child-like joy to your face. For me, that would make St Patrick’s day complete.

Beannachtaí Lá le Pádraig to all.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Islander

Humbling might be the word to describe the feeling that arose when I tried to change the address on our New Yorker subscription. I realised I wasn’t sure of the address format to use. Is it city and postal code on the first address line and street address the line after, as it was on the information packet given us by the relocation specialist? Or was that just her way of presenting the material? Does the house number come after the street name or before it?

It probably doesn’t matter; I’m sure the post will get to us. But it’s symptomatic of the sometimes humiliating experience of not knowing, of being ignorant, in the bluntest term, of common expressions of social life, after a lifetime of natural competency in a common language.

This morning, for instance, I’m going to a place suggested by the hotel desk clerk to have my pale, nearly invisible, eyebrows shaped and tinted, as I do periodically. How will I convey my preference, for I’ve found that leaving it up to the judgement of the beautician yields disappointing results. (Perhaps I cling too stubbornly to the beauty standards of my youth.) If I’m lucky, she’ll be fairly fluent in English, but even so, the insecurity of not being to express with precision what I mean is disconcerting.

The other day I left some clothes to be cleaned. The woman at the desk had enough English, and the transaction was simple enough, that we got on well until she asked me to spell my name. My Irish surname – not Seal – is straightforward enough in English, but vowels are pronounced differently in other languages. ‘A’, I said, and she wrote ‘E’. We corrected that, then came an ‘E’. If ‘A’ is ‘E’, what is ‘E’? And ‘Y’, it turns out, is pronounced ‘Ipsilon’. I will have to carry a card with the name printed on it until I am able to spell in German. A simple solution, but again, the humiliation of not being able to spell one’s name!

It’s lonely, too, not being able to pass remarks with those around me. At breakfast yesterday, my husband having left for work, the cheerful waitress patted my shoulder as she passed, seeing, I suppose, something pass over my face when he’d gone. She’s unfailingly kind and welcoming, but she speaks no more English than I do German. Conversations swirled around me in the breakfast room; I sat as an island, mute. It was St Patrick’s Day, and I wore a shamrock. I showed it to her, but she nodded without comprehension. I couldn’t find any word or other way to explain its significance. (Salzburg is not like America is this respect: as far as wearing green, the day seemed like any other. Only in the Irish pub we went to in the evening was the occasions observed.)

I enter shops, and people greet me with the traditional, ‘Grüss Gott’, which I return. Then comes a flood of words, inquiries and offers of help, to which I can only shake my head. On buses, women turn to me and begin conversations. Alone as I am much of the day, I would willingly engage with them, but I can only respond, ‘I don’t speak German’. (Soon I hope to be able to say it auf Deutsch. ‘Ich habe nicht Deutsch,’ perhaps. Or is it, ‘Ich nicht Deutsch habe’? I’m guessing here.) There’s surreal quality to the experience, as I am addressed with friendliness in a language I don’t understand, like watching someone mouth words from behind a window.

It’s not that I’m not getting by. I am, with comfort. Most people do speak at least a smattering of English, many with fluency. I’m cossetted in pleasant hotel, and I’ve learned to get around on the bus. (Yesterday though, on foot, I got lost, but that’s another story.) People are helpful and very kind; I feel very lucky. There’s an element of wonder or awe, even, at being unable to read signs or understand apparently simple questions. Language, the element I’ve always been most at home with, is nearly opaque; conversations around me become white noise, easy to ignore. It’s on a par with living in a hotel, with few responsibilities for the present, as though I’m on a desert island, observing, waiting, resting. But there are those moments of frustration, as when I couldn’t tell the waiter to give me ten and keep the rest, because I don’t even know the numbers past four, and two, three and four are shaky at that. I stand on the shore of my island, contemplating the vastness around me, knowing soon I must soon dive in.